Portrait Collage
I always feel as if though I am on display, especially whenever I am in any public setting. Its an exhausting mindset that I never knew quite how to handle. When you feel as if though all eyes are on you, it's hard to be yourself. I don't feel free, I feel suffocated. I knew I wanted to portray this angle when I was taking my photos and came across this pose. Through lots of cutting, trial and error, ripping, and several lost pieces, I made something simpler that I imagined, however effective to see.
Starter GIF
Personal GIF
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Me slapping Kim. (fake not real I swear)
I decided to make my started GIF very simple. I made a silly concept in my head and we took a series of photos based on that. I went over my photos with small doodles that gave the effect I wanted. This project was fueled by the immense rage I have towards Kim (jk). |
To be quite honest, I often have trouble connecting with my emotions. I feel as though I speak my mind, but the words that come out of my mouth never match what I'm feeling deep down. The space where my heart is meant to be feels empty. Ripped from my soul, yet also just out of reach. I portrayed this very literally. I feel chaotic yet plain all at once, like a useless soul that cannot be used. I don't wish to crash and burn this hard but I cant help it. All I can do is keep reaching till I can hopefully get a grasp on who I am.
My Safe Space- Sculpture
For my safe space sculpture I decided to make my room. My room has always been a sacred space to me, and although I think most people feel the same, mine is too a different extent. My room is a sort of sanctuary, so much so that I hate it when other people enter it, so If you've been allowed in you know you're special. When times were hard, and when the world outside felt louder than ever, my room was my retreat. A space where I knew where everything was, where I was in control, and where I could sit for hours and feel like home.
My room feels like the one thing I can control in an otherwise careless world. I love my room, and I love my safe space. The colors I used directly related to the ones in my actual room. I tried my best to be as accurate as possible. I used a lot of the "tabbed" bases and and hinges. I used the triangular bases to hold up certain aspects, such as under the bed and behind the closet.
My room feels like the one thing I can control in an otherwise careless world. I love my room, and I love my safe space. The colors I used directly related to the ones in my actual room. I tried my best to be as accurate as possible. I used a lot of the "tabbed" bases and and hinges. I used the triangular bases to hold up certain aspects, such as under the bed and behind the closet.
Sequence of Photos
The overall mood I went for was gloomy. I used dark greys and blues to encapsulate what it feels like on a rainy say. Muddy, cloudy, and wet. My model, Kim Mancilla, portrays a more curios person walking after a storm. Not caring about mud on their shoes, observing puddles, even tossing a pinecone in and making a splash. Even though the mud can be annoying, and the water can be messy, there's a certain beauty to find in it all.